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20 July 2009 @ 08:59 pm
PUBLIC APOLOGY....a REAL one and not a fake like Chris Brown  
I'm sorry if i'm not active. The summer is making me feel really REALLY crappy. i even made myself look like an ass in a graphics community that pretty much kicked me out in a way (1 reason being that i wasn't that active) :( I've not done much but sit here in front of the fan. my room is REALLY hot an i can't sleep anymore. i can't normally function in this weather. the time passes so fast. I've not even gone swimming as much as i should this summer. I can barely sleep. I go to bed around 2am and i wake up a few hours later to pee. and i can't fall back asleep. my back ends up hurting, too. so i just lay there. i get 5 hours at the most these days. i can't sleep in a hot room during the day. i just can't. i try to go to bed as early as possible, but i end up staying up later. :/ So i'm pretty much tired as hell as you could imagine. So i end up not doing anything at all.

THIS IS WHY I PREFER TO BE A NIGHT OWL. i sleep better during the day. i HATE being awake during the day. it SUCKS

So anyway, this summer has treated me like utter shit. i'm NOT having fun. i don't have anyone to talk to really. nothing to do. nowhere to go. :|

so yeah...my mind is a blank. i can't think straight. i just wanna sleep for days and days. too bad i don't have any sleeping pills. i just...can't do it anymore. i want this damn summer to be over with. i just don't care about Arizona. i hate it. AZ can't suck it. thank god it rained earlier tonight. too bad it gets stormy at night. then the stupid hot ass sun comes out during the day. i feel like a damn roast in here.

anyhoo, don't expect me to comment every entry i see. i'm sorry but i don't have the time right now. i'm too tired and i don't feel good. i feel like crying in my pillow right now. and the tears begin.....

SO MUCH PRESSURE!! >:O *sniff*
Current Location: hell AKA Phoenix AZ
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: family guy
Schroeder: Sad Schroederschrogwr2 on July 21st, 2009 04:49 am (UTC)
*HUGS, just cause* I really hope your situation improves. Hang in there. :-(
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™: PPL: lorne - cg season 6blossombunny on July 21st, 2009 06:34 am (UTC)
*hugs back* thanks :) me too
☮ ❤ Crissywife_and_mom on July 21st, 2009 05:09 am (UTC)
I don't function well during the day, I think the sun makes me grumpy. I haven't been sleeping much at all and it is turning me into a monster. I'm looking forward to fall.
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on July 21st, 2009 06:33 am (UTC)
i was making dinner the other night and this kid was trying to open the oven door asking me "what are you making? what are you making? blah blah blah" and it was hitting me and i lashed out "WILL YOU GO AWAY!!"......he's a pain in the ass. but now i feel bad for doing that. hahah. well maybe not.

yah i'm looking forward to fall, as well. whoever decided that arizona was a good place to settle was obviously drunk. lol!