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18 January 2006 @ 07:54 am
i give up  
i hate Chris (the one in Canada)..he's a player. he made me think he loved me, but he loves 2 other girls..possibly even more. he can't make up his fucking mind who he wants. i don't agree with his views on relationships.

he's not been on MSN in weeks..and i don't give a damn. i don't miss that ugly retard. we have nothing in common. and since i'll never move to Canada now, i won't be seeing him.

speaking of which, after next week, i don't think i'll be moving there. it just won't happen. i'm not lucky. things don't go the way i want. i won't have enough money. i won't have a college degree. and i won't have enough work experience. i know i'll be rejected..so why bother? why go through all that for nothing? why even try? i'm better off here. i think i'll move to Chicago or St. Louis..or maybe Seattle. somewhere that'll be easy to move to. no immigration shit. :(

i deleted my anti-Harper post. it upset someone. :( i'm sorry. i'll admit defeat next week. we all know it'll happen. he'll win. and it don't matter anymore. i don't care. it's your life (canadians), not mine. it'll never be mine..ever. and we got our own devil in office. we need to worry about ourselves. sorry, again.

Toronto visits will be fine with me. i just can't take the stress and heartbreak anymore. i quit! i swear.

[mood| my dreams are gone..ripped apart]
Schroederschrogwr2 on January 18th, 2006 03:57 pm (UTC)
*sends HUGS* I'm sorry about that, Lauren. :-(

Hope you get through this and into a better relationship soon. :)
Chris G.chrisno51 on January 18th, 2006 04:05 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear this:(

I hope things get better, and hey living in Toronto was your dream, don't give up now!

Sometimes things don't go as we would like, though things always work for the best.

Best of luck to you!

ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
thanks Chris. really nice of ya.

i hope so too. i'm just preparing for the worst. better i do that now than later and save heartbreak.
Aggie: Imogen Heapaggiechan on January 18th, 2006 05:42 pm (UTC)
I didn't mean to put all my anger on you, because it wasn't just you.. there was another guy who was emailing me about how he wanted to shit on the Conservatives and stuff.. I guess I just had enough after that.

In anycase, try. That's all I can say. Try. Please keep a positive attitude. Don't assume the worst already (I should stop doing that myself). :P
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:13 am (UTC)
daaaaaaaaaaamn that's fucked up. :( he's probably unemployed. lol.

it's ok. i'm just not having a good new year. not at all.

i know it's not my business what you guys do. i guess i'm just a little scared, that's all.

shooooot, my best friend is a republican, he just won't admit it 'cause he knows i'll rant. hehehe. so, not ALL conservatives/republicans are bad. like you! you're AOK in my book ;)
spats_bear on January 18th, 2006 06:12 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear all this :( *hugs*
Lisa: Snoopy hugmoonglows on January 18th, 2006 06:18 pm (UTC)
Oh honey. :(

*HUGS* for you!
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:09 am (UTC)
awww thanks *hugs*
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ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:06 am (UTC)
i'm trying to..i really am. thx. :D
ladyhail: witbicon1ladyhail on January 18th, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC)
Forget Chris, you don't need him.
As for Canada, well sometimes dreams come true and sometimes they don't, despite our best efforts, it's horrible but you'll come to terms with it and be fine. Who knows, you may even be happier if you shelve the dream for the meanwhile and focus on immediate goals for a little bit (maybe getting part time work, trying an evening class or deciding to learn to do something cool on your own steam). But there's no need to give up on Toronto completely - you never know where life will take you or leave you so it may happen yet, probably when you least expect it.
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:04 am (UTC)
well, for the time being, my plans are on hold. if what i think will happen there in the next few week happens, then my plans are totally stopped. it's a matter of time. -___-
ShIvErS!shiveringsmile on January 18th, 2006 11:50 pm (UTC)
As jesi would say: go hug a pizza and you'll feel better.

Sorry dear, it's sad to hear that you're giving up. That prat is not good enough for you, better you discovered now that latter though.

Don't give up. Life is full of unexpected events.
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:02 am (UTC)
hhehe wish i had some pizza. hehe.

if things happen the way i think i do if he wins next week, i definately can't go. :(

i would have moved sooner but my dad got me out of school. that bastard
polekatzpolekatz on January 18th, 2006 11:57 pm (UTC)
Aww, Lauren cold hugs ur way... the Chris needs to come to his sense, he's a bigger hypocrite than he even knows. WOW!!!

As for Canada, you know what - we change government like Chris does his lies .. so no worries - come to québec! MONTRÉAL BABY!
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 19th, 2006 01:00 am (UTC)
i don't care about chris anymore. so he don't matter.

yah i know. i just have bad vibes in the upcoming weeks. so i'm preparing for the worst.
Nicolamylittleprince0 on January 20th, 2006 01:39 pm (UTC)
I hope Harper doesn't win I mean come on the citizen's of Cananda needs to be waken up lets all face it Bush is a freaking saint to that man at least in my eyes he is. It all comes down to this no matter who gets voted in office they are going to do what they are going to do regardless of what other people wants them to do. They said shit just to get in there and never full fill any of their promises so its all just open ended lies or what have you. I hope everything goes ok and your right you should be over some asshole that wants to be so immature come on now you are worth more than that guy chris you deserve someone else who wants a player for a relationship not I thats for sure and its better you found out now then got married and found out. ^_^ Hope all is well and hope your year turns out better.
ιнεαяттσяσηтσ™blossombunny on January 20th, 2006 02:08 pm (UTC)
yah me too. me too. :(

i don't want my dreams to end. i guess i'll have to wait and see. -_-